Crossroads:Either way is okay

I'm standing at the crossroads

where way to back to salary job and way to challenge.

This is the position I hate to be.

At some level, I unconsciously wanted the job interview'd not go well.

That'll make me not decide what to do.

I've got a call from a company I've interviewed.

I kind of told the representative that I'll see him next week,

I'm not ready for it tho maybe.. I'm never gonna be.

 

The reason why I'm worrying is that the company

is quite demanding.

It means there're gonna be night shifts almost everyday.

I need to make money for challenging.

However, if it takes a lot of my time,

I should reconsider about it.

 

And I'm in between going back to comfort zone

and getting out of my own bubble.

Either way is okay.

I need to be realistic.

I really need to change myself too.

 

One of the important thing in my life is

making myself satisfy.

Loving myself, knowing myself well...

My biggest problem was that

my words were louder than my actions.

Think less and Act more!

Experience will let me know.