What's mine?

Sometimes I think about what is possession,

what is meaningful life, who I am, something like that.

It can sound religious,

I define myself as an atheist or agnostic.

I feel like I'm in between.

 

Religion is always been one of my biggest interests.

I'm just a guy with curiosity.

I just wanna see if it can be a tool to read myself

and the world around me.

 

 

Sadly, no luck so far.

I can't say I've learned and informed in

all of the religions on earth,

I'm not convinced by any religions.

At some point, I have high standards on religions

like "Religion has to be like this, like that"

I know.. I have high requirements.

 

What I see from religions are just
strifes and wars for their ideologies.

I do know there's more than that tho.

 

What can I have at this moment?

What can I take when I die?

What is really mine?

What's in my mind?

My feelings? my thoughts?

Decisions I'm making?

 

I know there's a chance that

I'll never gonna find the right answer to this.

But I can't stop asking these questions to myself.

Cuz I feel like I don't own any of those.

It feels like It's given to me.

 

I don't think I believe in God thing,

but I believe in souls and spirits.

I reckon this life doesn't end after my heartbeats stop itself.

There's only one thing I know for sure.

I'll go back to the earth leaving all of the physical things

when my last day comes.

Then, I will be taking unphysical things.

Righteous thoughts and feelings.