Sensing

Despite my high 'intuitive' trait,

I'm quite a sensitive guys who senses lots of things

from outside and get to be stimulative.

It means I'm reading this world

by using not only my sixth sense but my 5 senses.

 

One thing comes in, it rattles around my mind and heart.

Things are getting worse when bad things happen to me.

When I'm given a bad stimulus on my skin, I feel stress and pain.

And the stress and the pain start to spread

from where I felt the stimulus to every single part of my body.

 

Those feelings get easily amplified.

One thing led to another, I found myself thinking

of the worst scenario that could occur to me.

 

Definitely, this is NOT something I want.

And that's not someone I wanna be.

I'm just saying this is just who I am.

Accepting myself just the way I am is what I've learned

rather than blaming myself.

 

Still, I'm a human being covered with flesh, full of feelings.

It's quite tough.

One of my friends who is quite a sensitive and anxious guy

said "Oh sometimes I wish I was a psychopath or something.

because... that'll NOT make my emotional collapse"

 

I partly sympathized with him.

Cuz feeling every single thing can be hard and harsh at some level.

I'm sensing I'll be over soon tho.

I have a better understanding of myself right now.

So I know what to do, I'm aware of where to go.

I'm willing to make myself better.