High expectations:Gap

I wanna be someone who is assured of everything he does.

But I'm not sure if I'm going to the right way or not.

Is it going okay? Am I okay with this state?

 

I thought I could do everything, EVERYTHING

once I have the environment.

It turned out it was me.

My damn old habits, principles, and the fear...

I'm not that progressive.

I fully take this fact.

 

I feel like I'm back to square one.

However, I believe probably everything worked out for the best.

I really should believe like that.

 

I know where these worries and agonies come from.

There's a BIG gap between my ideal world and reality.

It really doesn't have to be but I'm easily get hurt

by human beings' nature, about myself.. I can't help this feeling.
I have high expectations but every time it turns me down,

I feel like I'm losing the energy to live.

I don't think I'm born with big energy.

Lack of energy to change all of this.

Instead of facing it, I just run away from all of this.

 

It's okay. You're okay. It's gonna be okay.

You don't have to be perfect.

Let it be just the way it is.

Let it be yourself.