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I wanna be someone who is assured of everything he does. But I'm not sure if I'm going to the right way or not. Is it going okay? Am I okay with this state? I thought I could do everything, EVERYTHING once I have the environment. It turned out it was me. My damn old habits, principles, and the fear... I'm not that progressive. I fully take this fact. I feel like I'm back to square one. However, ..

I kind of found out the reason why I get annoyed everytime I miss the bus I take. It's out of my control just like my life. I feel like I'm not running my life well. I prefer to walk or drive. Even tho I may need to wait for the next pedestrians light turns on, At least, I don't have to wait till the bus comes. I can head wherever I want. The job recently I got is not bad. I less get paid compar..

Despite my high 'intuitive' trait, I'm quite a sensitive guys who senses lots of things from outside and get to be stimulative. It means I'm reading this world by using not only my sixth sense but my 5 senses. One thing comes in, it rattles around my mind and heart. Things are getting worse when bad things happen to me. When I'm given a bad stimulus on my skin, I feel stress and pain. And the st..

Sometimes I think about what is possession, what is meaningful life, who I am, something like that. It can sound religious, I define myself as an atheist or agnostic. I feel like I'm in between. Religion is always been one of my biggest interests. I'm just a guy with curiosity. I just wanna see if it can be a tool to read myself and the world around me. Sadly, no luck so far. I can't say I've le..

I've been taking acting classes lately. Once a week and it will be lasting till June. The reason I'm taking these classes is that I have unsolved feelings. Unfortunately, those 'unsolved feelings' are negative feelings I've been keeping for a while. Anger, fear, anxiety, resentfulness... I've learned that even if it's bad feelings and thoughts, I need to express and get them out of my body. It's..

On the way back home from having interview, I philosophized about life, what life is, what is meaningful life to me, what'll make me fulfill myself. Even if it collapses me everytime I realize there's a huge gap between my ideal world and the reality, Establishing own values and having own principles are quite important in my life. What is meaningful life to me? What will make me special and bei..